The past few days have been very long and tiring. It hurts so much to see muke feeling the way he does, and it's sending me on kinda of a roller coaster of feelings. Like right now for instance I'm feeling pretty good...but as soon as I go to pick him up and see his face of misery, I'm almost absolutely certain that I won't feel as good. It's just so great when he does smile...to see him that way.... I feel like it's all my fault and there's nothing I can do. I can only imagine that the way I'm feeling now was the way he was feeling when I would get depressed almost every day.
All I can do is wait and hope that we can work thru this.